Home

As I sit typing this in my parents kitchen my mind goes back to days in the past when it would not have been unusual for me to be sitting here. It is weird how life changes without us really choosing it. It never entered my mind that at some point in my life Amarillo would not feel like home. I knew I couldn't always live here but I thought it would still be home no matter where I lived.
 While part of that is true, I don't feel quiet as attached as I did before DLA. But I also don't feel at home in Colorado. It is nice and I like living there but it's not home either. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever truly feel at home again, at least while I'm living on this Earth. 
I know the Bible talks about us being separate from the world and that our home is in Heaven. Some days I feel that way. It makes me think of that C.S Lewis quote that says

"If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world."

This brings me hope and sadness all at once. Won't I ever feel comfortable here? Will I always feel like I am missing something? I don't know the answers to those questions. I do know that God will provide for me wherever I am. I know that I am here for a reason, that going through time, challenges, hardships, joys and sorrows are not in vain.So no matter where "home" is I know that I will be ok. Eventually this homesickness will go away and I will know joy unspeakable. Until then I am just a traveler in this world, journeying toward my eternal home.

Traveler's Song by Future of Forestry